merdu

i hate rihanna when she sings in high note. its like cacat or something

but i love to hear her low notes in this song..

seems pure, innocent, and effortless

wish she can sing with that note forever n ever :)

selfness

i am selfish. who isnt?

but today, saya tersentak. i didnt know how selfish i am till it happened today

went to Mydin and saw this









omg. terliur. been so long I've had grapes. the big bulat and juicy grapes were soooo damn menggiurkan dan menggoda. slurpp


so, ive bought it at rm2+


went home, put it in the fridge and continued surfing. i felt a sudden thirst and went to the refridgerator and took out the cold water bottle and had a sip. Yuli (Aeisya's babysitter cum maid) was there too with my niece, Aeisya.


"Kak eti, ni siapa punya ni"..she took out the fruits.



"Saya. Nape?"


"Aeisya nak"..


Saw my 5 year old niece looking at me with pleading eyes..

My mind began contemplating and tried to find excuses.

"Em Aeisya, tunggu eh. Biar die sejuk dulu."


"But Aeisya nak grapes, Auntie Ti.." Aeisya pleaded


"Nanti la sya. Biar grapes tu grow dulu k.Dia small lagi...." Said that. I did feel guilty but shook it off. Continued surfing


How selfish was i? Did i forget she's my niece?My own flesh and blood?Tskk


And later, this happened..


I was eating nasi lemak which my sister bought and was too engrossed surfing the internet. Aeisya came to me and handed me a thing while munching something. When I saw what it was..it was this


Chocolate :(



She had even took out the cover for me and put it in my plate. She remembered me. She is selfless. Her simple act make me shuddered.


I was selfish. She was not :(


Gosh.


Somebody please shoot me!



:(

Insidious

Cant wait cant wait cant waitttt

been hearing awesome reviews about this one

even guys jumped up and down and gasped like a pondan when watching this movie

all the more determined i am to watch it!! let see if i can just shrug it off like most horror movies ive watched..teehee :)

you Insidious..im gonna have youu tonite probably in KLCC, thats my promise..huhu...

toodles

Heartbreaker

http://yahoo.match.com/y/article.aspx?articleid=4932&TrackingID=526103&BannerID=747174

guttered

when the one that you have put you high hopes for turned you down..when the one that you'd think that you can rely on put his back on you..when the one that you need the most left you tremble..when the heart that was once filled with high expectations spits on you..

you'd think..

long and hard

where'd you go from here?

sex. no?

somebody once asked me

'HOW DO YOU KNOW HE IS THE ONE IF YOU HAVENT HAD SEX WITH HIM? FOR ALL YOU KNOW, HE MIGHT HAVE ALL SORTS OF DEFECTS ON HIS YOU-KNOW-WHAT..'

that somebody further added,

'ITS GOOD TO LIVE TOGETHER BEFORE YOU GET MARRIED. THAT WAY YOU WILL KNOW YOUR PARTNER'S TRUE COLOR. DONT YOU THINK?'

hmm. made me think. hard

this question was asked by a non-muslim. he was persistent in justifying that what he was telling me, is actually the norm between those young couples who are in their path of getting married..

from what i comprehend, he was actually telling me 'to test the market' first. if it's 'suitable and fun' then go ahead with it. buy a ring, get married and have sex everyday. kapish

how am i supposed to tell him that it isnt that easy peasy for a muslim.

i did tell him all those pantang larang in being a muslim. but i know, from the look that he gave me after my being an ustazah to him, he didnt buy it. if i read correctly, his face spelt 'BULLSHIT'

there's right and wrong in his contentions. i didnt automatically judge him as being vulgar. he's not a muslim after all. he's naive, i would say..in all aspects of his comprehension about Islam. i would probably act differently if that sentense was uttered by a muslim. hempuk dengan kerusi and rejam dengan batu, thats what i'd do!

i think it all comes down to our nawaitu or our intention

if you love that someone, you will take him or her as he or she is, regardless of whether how ugly his or her body is

love conquers all. if you are in love, you are blinded by all the defects that your partner has..give and take, that's what's essential in a relationship, no?

i hope i will love my partner unconditionally

BEFORE and AFTER our solemnization. amin :)

ants

can i just weep silently?

or wail like nobody's business?

have u ever thought of being a lifeless object, rather than being a human with heavy burdens on top of their shoulder?

sometimes when im in the loo and doing my business, my mind wonders.. and my eyes flicker..

if i see an ant on the floor, i longed to be that ant..carefree yet happy. nothing to be worried of. when im out of the toilet, reality hits me and life then continues to be like there's no tomorrow. time keeps running and everything is buzzing. one minute u see the clock and it's 9am..next time u see the clock it's already 7pm..how times fly and u didnt even realize it..what a waste dont u think?

-.-

that was why i like to have my quiet time in the loo. its like an escapism for me. wondering whether i can be that ant i see on the floor, or the toilet paper, or that mirror...

and sometimes when i take a breather, i look out of my window pane in my office room, and i wish i could be the trees, or the flowers, or even the rock..

they all have nothing to lose, nothing to be worried about, no responsibility.

sigh